Pura Vida!

Well i just got back from my second trip to Costa Rica and it was even more amazing than last year! God is working in crazy ways down there and it keeps reassuring me of his faithfulness. The ticos never cease to amaze me in their love and kindness. If only I could be like that all of the time. I wanted to bring them all home with me. And now its back to scooping away at the coldstone.
This is the ridiculously hot dance team that we had in Cachi. Dang!

moving at the speed of sound

i'm a senior in 2 months! that is so scary to me! ah.....i dont think i am ready for this. why does life go by so fast?? its like i blink and i'm a year older.

OoH i GoT a CrUsH oN yOu

So i have never really thought about it before, but there is definitely a reason that a crush is called a crush. Because as fun and mushy gushy as they can be, they can totally crush your heart. And why do i even let my heart get involved in a crush? Really i mean come on now, it's a crush for goodness sakes, not a boyfriend or anything that i could call my own. It's just this hope that lingers through my days, a smile, a glance, a hello. But those lead to the almost disgusting mushiness that make them so exciting. And i guess thats why i still crush, for the mush.

So there is this one guy...

i have this friend...and i'd have to say that he's pretty cool. he loves to talk, especially about things that he's passionate about. he goes on these tangents that can last for hours, but it's ok cuz i love listening. he brings up things that i would never have thought of, and he really challenges the way that i think, which i like. he mixes up the vowels in my name, but we understand each other when we can't verablize what we're thinking, so i'll overlook that. he's really smart, but i think that he doesn't realize how smart he is. not only is he book smart, but he's pretty life smart. he helps me when i'm struggling and gives me honest advice. he worries about college but i know that he'll get into the best one. we sit in slides on playgrounds and talk about the people that we like. we wonder why we like the people we do, and why the heck do things not work out the way we want them to? when he leaves, i'll probably cry because my conrad will be gone. but i know that we will stay friends because that's just how things are between us. oh, and he always bothers me to update my blog, so this one's for you.

i'm so old

welp, i'm the big 1-7 now and to be honest i don't feel any different. do you ever notice how people ALWAYS ask you that after your birthday? "do you feel any older?" and of course the answer is always NO. i guess what i feel is nostalgia. i love that word. but then again i feel nostalgic all the time. i feel weird that this is my 2nd to last christmas at home. i feel weird that i only have 2 more birthdays of being a teenager. i feel scared that I am growing up so fast. i am realizing that "the big kids" whom i looked up to when i was younger really aren't so big. because i'm one of those kids now, and i feel small and immature. i feel like my adolescence is slipping through my fingers like sand, and before i know it i'm gonna be old and wrinkly. i wish i could just stop time for a little while and bask in the excitement of my youth, but i know that it can't and won't happen. i guess thats just one of the things you learn about growing up, that you can't control it. and thats hard.

Pushover People Pleaser

"It's like I said, you can't go through life just trying to please people."
- the amazing Nathan Hooks
Recently i have been chatting with this kid about all of the drama in my life and he has brought to my attention the fact that I try way too hard to make people happy. It's exhasting and for the most part totally not worth it. People are gonna make mountains out of molehills no matter what you do, and i need to realize that I have no control over how people respond to the things I do.
...hey nate i'm starting a database of all of your insightful quotes starting right......NOW

Swingin' Baby!

Booya grandma! Yeah so earlier this volleyball season i was really sad cuz I didn't make varsity. But then it didn't really matter cuz i absolutely loved my JV team, we were the BOMB. I became such good friends with all of my girls and we had an amazing season. But at our last practice i found out they were pulling me up to varsity for their post season and i am STOKED. I get to serve and play back row which is my favorite! Woop Woop.